Mood swings. Short temper. Loneliness. Desperation. My old ways are trying to come back. The more I reach for God, the more the world seems to be pulling me back. I was baptized last Saturday, and instead of getting closer to God . . . The more I push Him away. It isn’t fair to him. He doesn’t deserve this from me. I am so irritated with myself!!!!! God please help me!
So tomorrow I will be getting baptized! And I have been so happy for this moment, and the enemy has been attacking through my family! They mock and ridicule everything I do. It’s so painful that I dont have the support from my family! I support all the things they do and they can’t even respect my faith.
I just pray that one day they find the light and love of God. And stop judging me and just love one another.
4 Look to my right and see; no one is concerned for me. I have no refuge; no one cares for my life.
5 I cry to you, O LORD; I say, “You are my refuge, my portion in the land of the living.”
6 Listen to my cry, for I am in desperate need; rescue me from those who pursue me, for they are too strong for me.
- Psalm 142:4-6